Monday, October 31, 2005

heyHEYhey (:

i feel good today because i woke up early!

not superduperwuper early, but super early. in my own clock that is.

and i woke up at..

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-drum rolls ;

8.45! HAHAHAH.

i know ah, its not that early but at least there's a eight in front! woohoo, i feel so liberated.

anyway, yesterday's post didnt come out! i wantd t wish evryone who's retaking m.t the best of luck! (which is my luck ;))

oh well.

im so glad i never need to touch cheena-china again (;

hmmm, i wonder how many people out there secretly (or openly for that matter) hate me. maybe if those list of people are revealed, wld i be...

shocked?

devastated?

betrayed?

hurt?

or happy? (oky, this isnt even supposed to be here lah. im not that sadistic :))

all i know is that i'll have this... negative feeling i guess. all the electrons flying towards me. daggers piercing through my itsy bitsy heart ):

but hey! on a brighter note (and self-indulgence) , they may hate me because ive got wunderfull besteques, fantabulous family & friends, a hiccup laugher, an ability to turn tomatoish when i laugh AND my oh-so-cute personality!

HAHAHAHAAHAH.

*sees list of joan-haters increasing in members*

ah well. im just rambling. i didnt even know why i got into this issue anyhows.

as much as i dont like being hated, i tell myself that i dont like every single one either! so HEY. vicious cycle.

everyone out there, if you feel like you're being hated by tonnes and tonnes of people, HECK CARE THEM! (:

its just important to be happy.

BIG SMILE EVERYONE! :D

Sunday, October 30, 2005

oh boo.

i slacked a lot again, but im pushing myself soon.

just giving myself a couple of breaks (;

and season two o.c.'s ending really is TRASH.

meep, im bored ):

turn that frown upside down. wheee.

Friday, October 28, 2005

im finally taking a break.

but im not going mad yet lah. i still feel an uncontrollable urge to mug.

hurhur.

im feeling kinda guilty today. its the first break-day im giving myself. sad news, i dont feel liberated.

so im going to succumb to my guilty conscience and go back to mugging chemistry later :)

i did history this morning. about hitler. as much as he's my favourite villain but urgh, it can be a pain in the neck just remembering those facts.

actually i kinda got the hitler's facts in the bag, its those allies victories that are killing me. im betting its coming out for source based anyway. that, or china.

or all the rest of the possible source based topics. hoho.

i cant believe caleb just died of a heart attack.

oops, randomness :)

you see, the reason you should watch the o.c. is because :

1.they're filled with beautiful people. all around.
2. seth and summer are sucha funny couple.
3. julie cooper's the one favourite villain you love the hate.
4. sarcasm runs in the cohen family.
5. seth makes me laugh.
6. seth makes me laugh.
7. seth makes me laugh.
8. did i mention seth makes me laugh?
9. ah, the bimboness of summer roberts is just cute.
10. there's so MUCHmuchMUCH drama in it.

e.g. marissa almost got raped by ryan's brother, trey who just came out of prison for stealing a car. caleb dies of a heart attack. julie cooper almost wanted to murder him before, i think, she turned nice. kirsten falls in love with carter, gets alcoholic and now, sandy has to babysit her.

oh gawd, i cant stop myself from disgressing about o.c.

its a very nice show :) / serial drama/ whichever.

how i wish i could use my super-powers and fast forward to 7th November and just get a head start of all the questions.

hmmm, how nice.

oky, im dreaming again. my forte.

i miss netball. havent played it in a while. oh sigh. exams. exams.

Monday, October 24, 2005

mugMUGmug.

that's all ive been doing these days.

and indulgence in o.c. too :)

i adore seth cohen. im so glad he & summer are back together. they both crack me up :)

oky. im off again.

Friday, October 21, 2005

im tired.

anyway. had ss in the morning, was rather a waste of time ): but lit was good. managed to complete two unseens. im definitely going to work hard on that area, secure that damn a1 & i really hope im improving!

went hme, rushRUSHrush ; met vonn.

she clipped her hair & wore a pink chipmunk shirt! she looked really adorable ; like a little girl (:

so well. met jh ; justin & jazreel. went t eat. annie and derrick came!

derrick is so funny lah. he makes me laugh a lot. and he asked jazreel if justin was a girl! hahaha. cause he thought the girl might be justina & her nick is justin.

very funny!

wong ; grace ; bao were late. but i got t eat my old chang kee squidhead!

please people! go to white sands to have your old chang kee please. the squids are superBIG & hot & nice!

yummy-wummy-gummy.

-drools.

and justin was cute. he didnt know where to queue! hahaha.

so well. junming came all the way from mjc to white sands ; specially to fetch us! whoohoo. he's very nice. and very dark. and tall.

plus, he keeps speaking english now. im so not used to it. he used to curse & speak in hokkien/chinese.

hurhur!

i cant really remember the events, please pardon me (im laughing because derrick said this so funnily) ; my memory's failing me!

mjc's really huge!

and junming's funny man. he made us walk behind the goalpost (for soccer, i think). wah, can you imagine my embarrassment if i cant walk through it as easily as he did!

heng i could lah. (:

but we had a lousy tourguide who kept on rolling her eyes because derrick/grace wanted to go for choir auditions!

went for the principal's address. i felt it was really motivating lah. and yvonne was sniffing really loudly & everyone looked at her?

mjc's quite a good jc. the grades seem to be improving constantly & miss esther (?) lai seems to be quite a stern principal.

cut off point is 14-15 (minus cca pts) for ARTS & SCIENCE!

decided i might take :

h2 ; econs & lit. necessary subjects and for h1 content take history.

i think i'll rather major in econs than history. so yes. A303.

and you should just see derrick's imitation of the aunty in front of him. i laughed till i cried oky!

oh. and bur&co also came.

whee. and well, slacked in mj for a while before heading to mac.

took pictures of swank! hahaha. and ate fries while i waited for derrick & bao to suan me about my laughter.

which btw reminds me, when i was laughing, my dearest senior jm asked if i got hiccups -.-

i cant help it when i laugh then i hiccup and turn tomatoish!

and justin admitted to jazreel we're together, then he said we're having our wedding soon at a KOPITIAM.

i said no, he be there himself. and he dumped me.

HAHAHAHAHAH.

it was quite funny lah.

and vonn & i are husband & wife! she's the husband. she pay everything. and she said she didnt want to be a guy because need to go NS -.-

funny sia.

(;

bao's a bit sotdot. wears jacket when its frigging hot because he doesnt want to hold it. hurhurhur.

THANKS YOU LIM JUNMING! for well, everything lah. (; thanks a lot.

and im tired. ):

dingdongdingdongdingdong.

and yvonne, here's yr long awaited blog entry. read and enjoy. hurhurhur.

Thursday, October 20, 2005

happy happy today.

im just in a good mood and extremely lucky too!

my science practical went oky, it was muchMUCHmuch better than prelims!

but well, the debate is still on whether the salt is a lead (II) nitrate or zinc nitrate.

):

i hope its lead! -crosses fingers.

and being in the lockup room was fun lah. me, zhao, ben, jaz & cinth had a lot of fun talking about uhhhhhh, stuff (;

lala & fathi & yat also taught us all about their religion!

(;

and jean fell sick i think. bird wanted to send her home? anyway, although i dont know you very well jean, get well soon!

im just very happy today.

and li zheyang, please dont be so kpo and bombard poor wong with all your questions! grr.

im hungry now ));

i won lots at mahjong btw! yay. so happy. first time i ever won so much.

and heh, me & wong spilled ice lemon tea at 7-11 & bao cleaned up for us! how nice.

bao learnt a lesson today. never swing his hands around.

sigh.

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

oh my gawd, im so tired. ):

i think i laughed too much today.

amath lesson with mr goh was GOOD. the first ever good amath lesson. seriously. he was very patient lah. super nice. (:

and jazreel had a silly _________ (insert name of animal here).

chemistry was good too. enlightening.

physics. yay. mr zaldy was cute. hurhur.

and i took a lot, and i mean a lot of stupid photos with yvonne/bao/wong.

really, they were retarded.

and practical's this thursday. ):

im scared!

and i dont feel like going to schl tmrw although im supposedly supposed to get my report book? ):

im still tired.

and poloman cheated my feelings! go for malaysia for a while only :D

Monday, October 17, 2005

i made all the nice farewell letters already!

:D

and they look very nice of course (;

i wished i had the time to personalise one for EVERYONE, but yea, time constraints ):

my apologises.

im a very happy girl :D

Sunday, October 16, 2005

this is going to be a long long long long entry :) pleas bear with me, if not, you can simply click that 'x' icon at your top right hand corner :)

4e1`o5

i'm gonna miss...xiaoqing ; our dearest head prefect.

i'm gonna miss...jazreel and annoying her.

i'm gonna miss...minnie who always forgets to eat her 'medicine'.

i'm gonna miss...cindy whose laughter sounds like cries.

i'm gonna miss...erlyta and her smoky accent.

i'm gonna miss...sokhui and her crazy infatuation with alwi and bala.

i'm gonna miss...sukhan and her innocence :)

i'm gonna miss...suksan who never fails to greet me each morning with a smile.

i'm gonna miss...annie, our bubbly & forever jumping around monitress.

i'm gonna miss...weychuen, our very own SEXY! (:

i'm gonna miss...melissa and how she laughs at me watching one episode of o.c. a day.

i'm gonna miss...nelly and how she laughs at everything.

i'm gonna miss...beeyin whose forever poking me.

i'm gonna miss...novianti who laughs at everything i say! (see? i told you guys i'm funny)

i'm gonna miss...emily and her endless scolding of SW.

i'm gonna miss...joan ; because im the greatest! hurhurhur.

i'm gonna miss...jacinth and her acting skills! :D

i'm gonna miss...hannah who taught me that appearances are deceiving! (she's actually very tee-koh okay!)

i'm gonna miss...liming for always towering over me.

i'm gonna miss...suling who pretends she is tall! (:

i'm gonna miss...zhaorong ; for forever accusing me of bullying her! (which i didnt of course :))

i'm gonna miss...shihui, our sassy chinese dance lady.

i'm gonna miss...huining, who entertains me with her less-than-funny jokes! (jkjk!)

i'm gonna miss...yvonne low because she's my bestest-besty.

i'm gonna miss...yvonne veronica and her pronounciation of RED! (this thing only both of us know :))

i'm gonna miss...adi who told me miss liew looked like miss singapore!

i'm gonna miss...alfredo whose birthday seems to fall on everyday.

i'm gonna miss...andrew who never fails to irritate me.

i'm gonna miss...apisit, mr "i-love-football"

i'm gonna miss...benny, the guy who adores me very much! HAHAHA.

i'm gonna miss...justin, MY justin! and our top scorer of bedokview.

i'm gonna miss...fredy ; our dearest& most responsible monitor.

i'm gonna miss...fathi who never fails to bring laughter all day long.

i'm gonna miss...yuanyuan, 4e1`05's walking dictionary :))

i'm gonna miss...nazrullah aka lala - who brings joy to everyone.

i'm gonna miss...oscar, his o.c. and his laughter that makes us erupt into more laughter!

i'm gonna miss...syafiq and his sadistic sense of humour.

i'm gonna miss...jason, our amath genius. and how he constantly twirls his hair!

i'm gonna miss...wendy, our last but definitely not least person on our register list :))

4e1`o5 lovely teachers // thankyous

miss liew ; her funny antics & dramatism cracks the whole class up. you've been a fantabulous form teacher, in fact, the best (: we all love you loads! there's nothing bad to say about her, except she makes us laugh wayy too much.

miss khoo ; im so going to miss her biting sarcasm which makes us chuckle once in the while (as long as we're not the victims!)

miss pereira ; our perkiest teacher, in both personality and figure! she never fails to shower us with her encouragements and motivation :D

mr zaldy ; ah, my favourite. lol. the cutest of all our teachers!

mr alwi ; he looks stern but NO! he's very hilarious okay. and i'll always remember Mother Turkey! hahahaha.

miss tan ; i'll miss all her breakfast treats and chocolates. also, her OLENG-JOO and PALABOLA. :)

mrs hwa ; our very posh teacher and the only one who gave us farewell mugs! (:

mrs tiu ; gee, the fittest of us all (:

mr sunny chong ; tecnically he's my chinese teacher and his accurate chinese really motivates me! plus, he's cute lah (;

mr angullia/all chinese teachers/all malay teachers/all relief teachers of 4e1`05 :))

happy nine & company

zheyang ; mr vainpot-metrosexual of four years :))

jazreel ; my mummy jazreel of four years ((:

fiq ; mr sadism.

joan ; ALA. THE NICEST LAH. :D

wong ; miss laughing machine.

bao ; who carries laughing gas in a tank all day long.

vonn ; miss cutiepie.

sio ; that fashion icon.

ngiam ; my sweetiepie.

junhao ; you laugh, he laugh, everyone laugh!

grace ; miss spoton.

chicken ; mr bighouse, big wallet, big toilet!

luqman ; mr pacman? :)

wilbur ; mr shiok. forever suaning me.

gavin ; mr clarabelle.

bird ; mr jean. -coughs.

fishy ; mr daredevil.

bohan ; mr lame.

derrick ; mr funnyperson who wears mickeymouse teeshirt.

roy ; mr small in size but big at heart! :D

john ; mr pervert who touches guys' ass.

aaron ; mr siobhan.

weikang ; mr tee en en.

zhuankai ; mr "laugh-and-whole-body-starts-vibrating"

devin ; gee, i dont know half of what he's talking all the time!

damn. i gotta ciao now. will update on my beloved netballers soon. you guys know i love you too!

Saturday, October 15, 2005

ive just finished crying after yvonne's much touching letter ):

gee, four years just passed. it seems that ive just entered secondary one yesterday. okay, maybe i cant really remember much lah. but its been quite a fun time in bedokview.

i know, everyone's going, "HUH. i dont like bedokview" yadyada. but hey, you spent your four years here, and im sure they're pretty much filled with laughter and joy eh?

i know for sure that ive laughed hell a lot in bedokview. i enjoy the times spent here, the wonderful teachers (and very cute ones) plus my best part, the friends!

god. im so gonna cry again.

i'll miss my class, a lot. really. although im always with yvonne & jazreel, but yes, i do love every single endearing soul of 4e1`05.

how can i forget the fun times we spent as a class? Sunday Market would never have been a success if not for all of us. we made hell a lot of moolah, and had hell a lot of fun.

what about the times when we sang alfredo a birthday song after someone's actual birthday?

i bet alfredo turned 40 already. hurhur.

or the time when we gave miss liew her teacher's day present and she cried? that was sucha touching moment.

god, i love all of you guys man. 4e1`05's a class i'll never forget :) i heart you guys so much!

and to my dearest h9&company (which last count was a freaking 25 people including grace&derrick)

i love you guys! i'll never have survived my stressful secondary four life w/o you guys! :D

and well. to a certain person, thanks for sharing with me the joy&laughters of life (: you've been a great person. and yes. pef. :) a month. (:

okay. i shld go and eat my macdonalds. lol.

Friday, October 14, 2005

yummy cookies.

i made pacman cookies. so yummyyy. and cute.

but bur ate it. said it looked like coffee bean logo! ):

anyway. yesterday went to tampines with vonn to get my sis' present. a nice black necklace (:

and met siti-nurul-hudaaa. :D

and tampines' really nice now. got takopachi! :D:D:D

oh. and i saw ngiam's favourite guy. GOD. and she asked me the dumbest thing.

"why didnt you ask him if he remembers amanda?"

-sighs.

ah well. today was such an eventful day.

first we had to listen to our beloved principal talking to us. and an evaluation that requires our uh, thoughts.

oh well, im graduating tomorrow, so i wrote the true answers, for the bruddy first time!

wow joan is getting honest :)

anyhows. had literature. recess was uh, well, no words can describe.

oh and thanks ngiam for asking that silly question.

a lot of laughter and non-sense.

and emily "EEEEE" very loud at a certain mr wong.

emath. and went to fulin! whoopee. very nice to eateateat.

baking cookies was ultra fun! i made pacman cookies. oh wait, ive repeated myself. it was so fun lah.

wong/bur/bao/me/gavin.

and gavin kept stealing the food!

im so lazy to blog.

thanks bao for buying the eight days! :D youre very nice today. hurhur.

and bur, no thanks to you for eating my pacman. wong, thanks for helping me pack the cookies and gavin, thanks for acc me take bus?

(:

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

HELLO!

((:

im so happy.

actually, i was very very very very down this morning because polo broke to me the worstest news ever! )):

and i whined hell a lot about it until yvonne & wong got pretty much bored with me.

anyhows. i had amath this morning? i cldnt see a thing, so i sat with yvonne. vonn shld be a future mathematics teacher! she marked lala's paper very well.

scrutinised every single detail. how nice :))

but i wasnt concentrating. i was pretty much in a foul mood when polo tld me about the stinking news ):

well. recess was just artartart. i helped wong do her writing stuff! actually its quite simple lah, just write. yvonne's so fascinated i can write quickly.

-eyes widen.

we were late for our emath paper. hurhur.

serangoon garden's paper was much easier than our prelim paper. i hate paper one. i adore my calculator okay! :D

after schl, talked to polo for a while. said he'll try to get his phone back. i wonder how anyway. but hey, anything's possible right? (:

waited for them to finish their surveys while we headed to jh's hse. mahjong mahjong! :D

and bao treat me because i helped with the art :)

oh. and i laughed lots, until i couldnt breathe. the feeling was kinda choking. and to tell you the truth, i cant even remember what i laughed at! hahaha.

i whined a lot the whole day anyway :P

didnt win a lot during mahjong. but i got all the flowers! and they keep saying i cheated. haha (:

OH. and on my way back, the happiest thing happened! polo solved everything! solved his problems and i was grinning like an idiot :D

oh damn. i must go now.

im happy. :)

tomorrow's a good day :)

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

hello!

im so happy today.

yesterday i made two very nice cards for two very lucky people :D you must be very blessed to have me as a friend okay!

i cheer people up! (:

anyway. had to do english today. so terribly boring that i had to miss call people just for fun. and i went to peeeeee.

supposed to get wong's art done during recess but uh, mr tock wasnt in the room.

bao's buying me stacks of construction paper for my birthday. wong can buy me colour pencils. yvonne can get me my mahjong cake and junhao can buy me 'painty' markers.

thankyou all (:

anyhws, spent recess crapping with everyone. its sucha funny day today :)

mock exam was uh, amathish? and i got my cca summary! i got A2! yayness. im really happy okay. i thought i'll end up with a B or C, but yay. A! :D:D:D

and everyone was rushing last minute entries lah.

ummmmm, and the CCA summary thing had A LOT of errors! hahahaha. okay, i shant laugh. i think quite a number of everyone know alrdy since i tld everyone possible. :)

but it was really funny what!

went to jh's hse. played the alphabet game with vonn, wong & jazreel. hahaha, funnybunnies.

woohoo! won loads during mahjong. 35 chips! :D and bohan kept cursing me, he said i'll lose a lot.

-sticks out tongue.

and hey, wilbur looked like maple-mushroom, but yvonne said the orange pillow looked like a piece of shit.

that cracked everyone up anyway.

oh. and im really really happy today :D and i think i made someone happy too! hahaha. :D

Friday, October 07, 2005

the talk with grace is so inspirational!

its so amazing about her matured way of thinking about different aspects of life.

plus, her astute sense of judgment!

and thankyou grace, for making me believe in myself more. and you're a wonderful person, so you should always believe in yourself too.

everyone has their flaws but it is how you minimise them and turn them into good traits of yours :)

love you girl.

and thank you junming! hahaha. so nice of you to accompany me talking to me about your stressful life in mjc. hahaha.

and you've been brilliant, you smart person :D thanks for your help. gained a lot today.

seems like im a much happier person than i was before :D

heyo.

IM SO PISSED.

okay, im not trying to show off here or anything, but i seriously felt angry with myself.

its ironic how i did well for english paper one, and flunked my english paper two.

and my oral was close to full marks.

-bangs head on the wall.

and thankyou miss tan yok siew for being so lenient. and no, no tinge of sarcasm or whatsoever. :)

i seriously didnt think my compo was up to the 27/30 standard.

and seeing my big name up there was so exhilarating! that ecstasy and relief! :)

im sorry if i sound show-offish, because im just very happy, that's all.

but the bomb hit me when i flunked my paper two, bringing my grade 1 to a effing B3.

URGH.

and thankyou yvonne & poloman for trying to cheer me up :D

im praying hard for a A1 in combined humanities. PLEASE.

justin boon can be our top student for our batch! no need to wait till the o'levels. just give him the goddamn top student award now! :D

after schl, i went bedok with yvonne.

LI ZHEYANG YOU BETTER STOP SUANING ME OR I'LL SUAN YOU OKAY.

grr.

it was very fun laughing with yvonne. and kfc's spicy chicken was so nice terrible.

really it was. the chicken was not tender, the skin had no taste and i felt like ive wasted three buckeroos!

and we kept laughing ourselves silly. at everything imaginable. yvonne's imagination is well, damn hilarious :)

okay. i shld get going. tata people.

p.s blogging helps. im not pissed anymore :) of course, talking to grace must have helped!

Thursday, October 06, 2005

woohoo!

blogger's posting thingo is back to normal.

anyway. ive decided that i cldnt make it to any jc (well, serangoon most probably can), so i am not going to try.

there's always poly and the integrated resort / tourism and hotel management / law courses, which im quite interested in.

-sighh.

besides, even if i made it to jc, i cldnt go far. the most is, yes, maybe make it to some ulu university, get some ulu degree and be among one of the jobless graduates.

nah. singapore's small enough. i dont think we need that.

and justin boon! if you're reading this, you straight As student, why go tampines jc when you can go temasek jc! smarty pants.

i wrote something nice about you okay :)

is that big enough for you?

you wldnt want to know his scores for both math and sciences. you'll just start hammering your heart and totally feel demoralised.

i swear.

chemistry was boring today. i spent my time doing bao's ARTIST STATEMENT AND CONCLUSION.

BAO YOU OWE ME TWO TREATS :)

and wong, you'll still owe me marche.

i must remind myself, or they'll cheat my treats.

recess was lit lit lit. ah, i got a pathetic FOUR. im so disappointed in myself. ive always loved lit, i cant believe i'll screw up MY PRELIMS.

goddammit.

and english mock exams were, a breeze.

because i spent my time sleeping! :)

oh. and the survey was uh, a tool of ...

its oky. im not getting my pants sued. :D

anyway, im quite happy today.

for the first time in my life, i think ive decided what i wanted to do with my life. :)

and i love you yvonne low! dont worry about us being distant if you're in a bruddy good jc and im in a poly :) you're still my bestybesty :)

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

yesterday was tuesday right?

yes it is. hurhur.

yesterday was prettymuch w/o fun ; let's just skip on today.

it was raining waining this morning!

and i like suhailah's jacket. very nice. (okay, this is random but yes...)

went to schl with eileen and to the hall i went.

im sucha terrific friend. ive finished wong's mandala thingo! its so bee-you-tea-full! i wanted to keep it y'know, but being nice, i gave it back to wong.

plus, wong, you know you owe me a marche treat dont you? :D

we had our ss workshop this morning. it was quite a bore.

i just ate sweets non-stop because i was a hungry monkey. hahaha.

jelly tots! i dont know why poloman said it sounded vulgar.

-shrugs.

got my ss marks back :) im very satisfied. i mean, after all that terrible threes and fours, im so glad my ss wasnt that bad after all! :D

oops. and i told the whole class to meet miss liew during recess, and it turned out to be tomorrow! sorry guys! :D

yuanyuan said he was a little angry with me ):

went down to join the rest. helped wongie do her mandala thingo again.

i got suaned. so terribly ): and and and, i was angry! how come nobody defended me! everyone kept adding lots of salt to the wound.

well, technically there's no wound lah.

then i think i mutated. into my tomato form ):

stupid tee weikang. TEE EN EN.

i want to strangle him. and zheyang. you watch out!

-shouts for grace.

hahahaha.

okay grace ong, you just ignore that statement. :)

mock exam was so fun! because mr zaldy was our invigilator. and i was looking very bored, and sleepy, then mr zaldy thought i was sad?

so he told me to smile. hahaha. i gave him this "i-am-smiling-for-the-sake-of-smiling" smile, and then he laughed to himself.

so cute right?

:D

then we had the triangle teacher. i dont know why he's mr triangle. yvonne keeps calling him that. weird.

and i fell asleep during my mock exam. all jazreel's fault! she fell asleep so early, then make me feel like sleeping also :P

got my amath paper. I PASSED PASSED PASSED!!! finally! thank gooooooodness.

and MY justin is a psycho lah. he wasnt very pleased with NINETY SEVEN (fricking lord) marks, because two marks were wasted because he forgot to put degrees and "area of shaded region".

GRR.

but he's so cute lah, so he should get his two marks right. hurhur.

mahjonged with jh/jaz/vonn.

we laughed lots.

(:

i shld study. tata guys.

Sunday, October 02, 2005

i cannot stand talking to jazreel chong suet mun!

she argues with me all day long. but its quite fun lah.

please see her blog for my wonderful drawing of..

a..

GUN!

hahahaha.

and im blogging because she went to PEEEEE.

actually, she can just come to my blog. it looks like a toilet blog. hurhurhur.

except, im not full of shit :D

tomorrow got school. im pretty much dreading school lah. its quite tiring to get up six in the morning and do the usuals.

and sometimes i just want t strangle Shakespeare.

yes, 12th night is quite hilarious. especially all that SEXUAL INNUENDOS!

-sees all the lao tee kohs all wanting to read 12th night-

aiya, but you wont understand.

maria: bring your hand to th' buttery bar and let it drink.

do you have any idea what that means?!

you'll be so shocked im going to say this.

it means, bring your hands to maria's boobs!

-hears audience's gasp.

ya lah. i didnt know that. and "thou mightst never draw sword again" means you're impotent. if you're "dry" and "barren", it means the same.

and to think mr peter lai never told us there.

we were all having literature lessons, happily and innocently, and never knew that shakespeare was a -gasp, lao ti koh!

anyway the only people i like in 12th night are Viola because i think she's one cool lady. and Feste. my ultimate most favourite.

cucullus non facit monachum.

but he's quite a spiteful person.

OKAY. i bet most of you are going "huh?"

laadeedah. im getting songs from jazreel! suddenly i take back what i said about her.

SHE SENT ME JIANG NAN!!! finally :D

I TRY TO REMEMBER... [from chicken soup]

1. Everybody doesnt have to love me
Not everybody has to love me or even like me. I don't necessarily like everybody i know, so why should everyone else like me? I enjoy being liked and being loved, but if somebody doesnt like me, i will still be okay and still feel like im an okay person. I cannot make somebody like me, any more than someone can get me to like them. I dont need approval all the time. If someone does not approve of me, I will still be okay.

2.It is okay to make mistakes
Making mistakes is somethig we all do, and I am still a fine and worthwhil person when I make them. There is no reason for me to get upset when i make a mistake. I am trying, and if i make a mistake, Iam going to continue trying. I can handle making a mistake. It is okay for others to make mistakes, too. I will accept mistakes in myself and also mistakes that others make.

3. I dont have to control things
I will survive if things are different than what i want them to be. i can accept things the way that they are, accept peopl the way they are, and accept myself the way I am. there is no reason to get upset if i cant chage things to fit my idea of how they ought to be. there is no reason why i should have to like everything. even if i dont like it, i can live with it.

4. i am responsible for my day
i am responsible for how i feel and what i do. nobody can make me feel anything. If i have a rotten day, I am the one who allowed it to be that way. If i have a great day, i am the one who deserves credit for being positive. it is not the responsibility of other people to change so that i can feel better. i am the one who is in charge of my life.

5. I can handle it when things go wrong
I dont need to watch out for things to go wrong. Things usually go just fine, and when they dont, i can handle it.

6. It is important to try
I can. Even though Imay be faced with difficult tasks, it is better to try than to avoid. Avoiding a task does not give me any opportunities for success or joy, but trying does. Things worth having are worth the effort. I might not be able to do everything, but i can do something. :)

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there are 11 of those lah, but i typed my 6 top important (and also because im quite lazy). :D

well, im quite happy happy happy today.

yesterday. message session was uh, enlightening :D hurhur.

anyway, grace ong! thank you very much. ive read about how much you adore me! :D hoho. and you were inspiring too okay. i love talking to you! :D

and i did a nice graphic. (:








whooohooooooooooooooooo.

Saturday, October 01, 2005

im quite emotional today.

i dont know why.

my emotions are like a rollarcoaster ride.

all my wires went tangled. i wish i wasnt feeling like a cascading waterfall today.

i dont know. is it the stress? but i mustnt blame anyone. because i know no one is responsible for making me sad or happy, but myself.

but somehow, i feel its not me.

a tiny part says no. you didnt make yourself unhappy.

a tiny part of me wants to blame the rest of the world, even though i cant. i know i shouldnt be feeling like this, and not get affected by everything said.

but sometimes, my thoughts get all crumpled up, and i lose my senses.

maybe i just dont know how to deal with this kinda shyt.

i need chocolates ):